.⠀. ୨୧⠀︶ 𓉸ྀི ︶ ୨୧ . .

 fuck.
i wish there was a feature where only people WITHOUT access could see an entry bc i have some really personal stuff to say, and sharing really personal stuff to strangers online is so therapeutic for me.
fuck it, i'm gonna talk about it anyway.

so there's this person i'm close with, right.
well, i've kinda noticed that i'm drifting further apart with said person.
and i really fucking hate it.
i've changed a LOT as a person, and i honestly feel like we're just too different now.
i've been telling myself to focus on the positive with this person but i've been having this internal battle with myself for months now,it's just not worth it anymore. i haven't talked to this person yet, i feel like there's never a good time to have the discussion. also i feel like a bitch about it, it's so hypocritical of me. i don't know anymore. 
it feels like i'm giving up. it feels like i'm giving up on someone i waited so long for. all those nights i spent crying, all those lyrics i wrote, some positive, some negative. all those times when i cried in my best friend’s arms. all the days where i put up with some of my least favorite people that i've ever met. every single rant to my friends. like i'm giving up, like it was all for nothing. 
fuck