.⠀. ୨୧⠀︶ 𓉸ྀི ︶ ୨୧ . .

 (yes this is a tv girl reference.)

anyways, i wanted to do some cute photography outside yesterday. i was BARELY outside my back door. 10 miutes later i get a call from my mom, who is out of state with my dad. now i'm fucking GROUNDED because my grandma called my mom because her blind and deaf ass thought i snuck out, and my mom didn't believe i was doing photography. even worse, i now have to sleep on couch downstairs next to my grandma's room and i don't have my phone. fuck.
on a positive note.. heheh, i started watching death note!! i watched the first two episodes last night and i like the show so far. 
but yeah, if i had any less of a will to live i'd kill myself right now. and the goddamn photos didn't even turn out good.

 i made a playlist on apple music with music that give me the cutesy 'concious doll decaying in an abandoned home and she can't scream for help and no one knows of her pain' vibe for some songs and 'half human half angel who spends her time connecting with nature like forests and baby deer and she loves life and her heart is pure but fragile' vibe for others. it's good to have a balance.
the playlist is 11 hours and 32 minutes long. it features some of my favorite artists, such as Elita, Solya, Babyteeth and Lalleshwari :)
i aspire to make music like theirs. i'm thinking of what i wnt my artist name to be. i'm thinking vivi rose? my nickname and middle name. i don't know quite yet. 

 so i could spend my own money ONLINE :D
specifically for depop, so i can get cute clothes and accessories that i can't get on amazon
unfortunately i live in this stupid lil tourist town in the midwest, and there's only one thrift store and it's a goodwill. my mom always goes without me and finds cute things for herself, but on the very rare occasion i get to go with her there's nothing good there.

point is, if iwant cute secondhand stuff i have to get it online.
and you can't exactly use cash online..! but my parents won't let me use their card ;(
if i had my own debit card then i could finally have a bit of financial freedom which i yearn for so bad

 not the k*nye album btw
ANYWAYS omg i'm basically done with 8th grade...
it's kinda dark, but if you told 6th grade me that i'd be ALIVE for this day, she wouldn't have believed you.
but hey, here i am! alive and wel- alive and functioning kinda!!!!!
looking forward to summer, even if i'll be grounded all through it :,)

 i got a train in cart ride on roblox and then someone made it explode :(((((((((((((((

i'm actually crying i'm so sad

 YAYYYY i’m old now
well i’m only 14 but still.. i can already feel my bones disintegrating
my birthday is tomorrow BUT i’m gonna be busy so i’m posting this today.

so i got law enforcement involved in some personal shit that happened
guess who’s cousin might be getting legal charges against him!!
he SO deserves it tho.. he needs to be 1000 km away from me and the female members of my family forever

Hopefully Vivi will be on Pinterest a healthy amount!! (She will not be)
https://www.pinterest.com/starxymelodiez/

 

So I finally start being gyaru actually… for like two weeks!
And then BOOM now I’m morute/dollcore.. woah
My room is just a mix of every aesthetic I’ve ever liked atp lmao
Next time I change styles again my money’s on y2k again, but not *actual* y2k, the tiktok version with baggy pants and stars yk
But that won’t be any time in the foreseeable future!

 the meeting with the superintendent is on the 16th, and then only one more week until i'm back at school, yipee
i miss all my friends, and by friends i really only mean like 4 out of the 8 people in my group
still pissed off at c for snitching after making me upset but like whatever
because I GOT TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND YESTERDAY, YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEE
my dad took me and my brothers to see the minecraft movie and he said i could invite someone to come with us :D
speaking of, 'a minecraft movie' wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be, i don't know like anything about minecraft but my bf was pointing out inconsistencies and writing notes like the fucking nerd he is /aff <3
uhh steve and that one guy should've kissed thanks for coming to my ted talk  🫡